This shit made me so effing mad when I watched it last night. Images of the Koch brothers haunted my dreams...http://utrend.tv/v/9-out-of-10-americans-are-completely-wrong-about-this-mind-blowing-fact/
If you don't know who the Koch Bros are then go find out and start boycotting their vast industries. In light of the recent government shutdown/Obamacare fiasco, start here: http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2013/oct/17/koch-brothers-beer-offensive-obamacare
Redd Said
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Because we love Jean-Luc..and all the other good men.
Let's cheerlead the men who love women and want to educate their brothers...
STOP RAISING GIRLS TO BE VICTIMS.
Rape is an assault that according to the sexual violence
charity RAINN happens to a woman in the US every 2 minutes.
Much was made earlier this year of the conviction in the Steubenville rape case. Yet this week we are confronted by articles on the miscarriage of justice in the Daisy Coleman case: http://www.policymic.com/articles/68133/the-maryville-rape-is-steubenville-2-0 and of the Ohio University student raped on the street last weekend while pictures of the crime were uploaded to Instagram: http://www.buzzfeed.com/ryanhatesthis/an-alleged-sexual-assault-that-happened-on-a-sidewalk-during.
These cases have key similarities. All of the victims were intoxicated. All of the crimes were witnessed. All involve inhumane efforts of bystanders to humiliate the victim rather than shame the rapist. I know some of that humiliation.
These cases have key similarities. All of the victims were intoxicated. All of the crimes were witnessed. All involve inhumane efforts of bystanders to humiliate the victim rather than shame the rapist. I know some of that humiliation.
When I was 21 years old I
was raped. I was raped by a man I knew, a colleague, his name was Carl.
It was the year 2000 and
my first year in college. I had delayed entry out of high school, because
unlike most of my friends I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. At
some point three years later I realized my life, such as it was, was passing me
by and so I decided to bite the bullet and apply to school.
I won a last-minute place to study Business at Leeds University about 4 hours north of my hometown, which doesn’t sound far, but in my native UK might as well be on Mars. And living on Mars is how it felt. At that point in time it was the culture shock of my life, directly comparable to the bafflement I would feel 8 years later when relocating to Los Angeles. We almost spoke the same language the locals and I, but everything was alien, and I was alone.
I won a last-minute place to study Business at Leeds University about 4 hours north of my hometown, which doesn’t sound far, but in my native UK might as well be on Mars. And living on Mars is how it felt. At that point in time it was the culture shock of my life, directly comparable to the bafflement I would feel 8 years later when relocating to Los Angeles. We almost spoke the same language the locals and I, but everything was alien, and I was alone.
Being a 21-year-old female
is to be supposedly indestructible. It’s the “time of your life”, it’s
wall-to-wall fun and frolics, it’s the world at your feet. Far from the image
sold to me by glossy magazines, my life at that time was a monochrome of
unmanageable poverty, pernicious body issues, and loneliness. I had not yet
learned how soothing my own company could be, rather the idea of being alone
filled me with dread. I was a mystery to myself, an awkward person I didn’t
want to know. My preoccupation with being thinner and therefore finally
“acceptable” had crippled my attention for anything else in life, and I
was one of the many girls I would meet over the course of my 20’s who threw up
almost everything they consumed. Suffice to say, I was not a happy person.
But on the surface I was
fine and dandy. I was 24-hour party people. I was quick tongued and sharp
witted. I was daring, extremist, bravado. I was a “fun girl”.
I imagine that was how I
found my job as a bartender at a trendy downtown bar “The Courtyard” that was
frequented by the combined student body of the two-college town. The Courtyard
was known for its female bartenders. Hot young girls with bleached hair and perfect capsule
wardrobes. At the time I had no idea why I was
hired. Nor it seemed did any of my colleagues.
My job compounded all my
worst insecurities about myself, but as it was my only source of income (I
self-financed through college) I couldn’t just leave. I chose to drown my
feelings in booze. If you take two parts British drinking culture, one part
college drinking culture, add a liberal slug of depression and top it off with
a bartenders job, you have an idea of about how much alcohol I was consuming.
Without doubt I knew this wasn’t clever, but in the face of no support network
it was the coping mechanism I clung to, and it got me through the day.
Roughly two weeks before
my rape, in desperation, I went to see a family doctor. I told him about my
eating disorder, how depressed I felt, that I wasn’t sleeping at night, and
that I was worried about how much I was drinking. I broke my heart in front of
him and sobbed all the sobs I had been holding back for the past four months
since my relocation. He unflinchingly wrote me a prescription for Prozac and
one for Restoril and sent me on my way. This was my first experience with
prescription drugs outside of antibiotics, I had no idea what I had been given,
and I didn’t bother to find out. Sure the label says, “don’t use alcohol” but
it says that on all drugs doesn’t it?
So it was on a Thursday
morning in mid January I woke up face down on my bedroom floor in the LBD I
wore for work. As soon as I opened my eyes I knew something was wrong. A
sickening lurch in my stomach that filled me with dread. I had woken up wasted
on other occasions, this was something else. I made it downstairs to the
kitchen of the house I shared with five other students. Two of them were there
and regarded me with such concern that I knew something had definitely
happened to me. They told me I had been thrown from a slow moving car onto the
sidewalk outside the house at 2am. That they had dragged me inside and got me
to my bedroom.
I had worked the night
before. Work finished at 11pm. That was three hours unaccounted for, even more
as I didn’t remember the end of the shift. I was filled with hysterical fear. I
was due back at work that night, I didn’t want to go. I wracked my addled,
hung-over brain for answers; it offered me darkness, no flashes of images,
nothing. Eventually I readied myself for work and tearstained and panicking I
went in.
I didn’t have to wait long
for an explanation. I was greeted at the door by one of our bouncers, Lenny. He didn’t mince his words, he told me that he had been the last one to lock up the
bar and had found me in the disabled bathroom unconscious while Carl, another
bartender, was having sex with me. He had kicked Carl out, but apparently I
couldn’t walk so he had put me in his car and “dropped me off”. He told me he
“didn’t think I was like that”, when through my sobs I asked him what he meant,
he replied “a slut”.
Although it was a long
time ago now, I remember just how physically acute the feelings of shame and
fear were. I felt disemboweled, I felt powerless, and I felt like it was all my
fault. I figured it must be what I deserved. The
thought of my body being violated by one man, and then thrown from a car like
trash by another, was too overwhelming. It never occurred to me to
report the crime, because I couldn’t bear witness to it, and because I felt
responsible for being a drunken mess. I did tell my assistant manager (another
young woman) that week and was almost instantaneously given “the soft fire” by
having all my shifts removed from the schedule. It seemed a fitting
confirmation to me of my lack of worth.
I know that girls with low self-esteem make perfect victims. They have
no concept of their own sexual power, of their attractiveness, and they are
also far more likely to use excessive drugs and alcohol to lower their
inhibitions. These girls, like the girl I was, are at risk. They are
vulnerable, they are fighting for a place in a society that dictates a
multiplicity of necessary attributes in order to be “let in”. They are
bombarded with images, suggestions, requirements of who they should be long
before many of them have figured out anything about themselves.
It is undoubtedly important to educate boys about the female
experience, to teach the definition of statutory rape and that it is rape,
that date rape is rape, that rape is rape. But it is of paramount importance to teach our
little girls to be ok with who they are. Girls need a world where
they know supermodels, porn stars, and Miley Cyrus should not objectified as
desirous role models. As women we need to be models of the integrity and
self-assuredness we wish for our daughters. We need to be centered in our own
feminine power however we each conceive of it if we are to raise girls who
will not experience the same fate as Jane Doe of the Steubenville case, Daisy Coleman, or of this week's unfortunate victim.
Monday, October 7, 2013
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